Last Issue to Deal With for Now

i n the end...it all reduces to that...I gotta wait for what's next, otherwise I'll make "meanwhile" very miserable. Miserable is not fun, so let's chill 'til it's time for success!

Musical Masterpiece: LeAnn Rimes/ What I Cannot Change

I will learn to let go what I cannot change

I will learn to forgive what I cannot change

I will learn to let go what I cannot change

I will learn to forgive what I cannot change

I will learn to love what I cannot change

But I will change,

yeah I will change

Whatever I, whenever I can

Movie Must: My Blueberry Nights (2007)

Elizabeth: Why do you keep them? You should just throw them out.

Jeremy: No. No, I couldn't do that.

Elizabeth: Why not?

Jeremy: If I threw these keys away then those doors would be closed forever and that shouldn't be up to me to decide, should it?

Elizabeth: I guess I'm just looking for a reason.

Jeremy: From my observations, sometimes it's better off not knowing, and other times there's no reason to be found.

Elizabeth: Everything has a reason.

Jeremy: Hmm. It's like these pies and cakes. At the end of every night, the cheesecake and the apple pie are always completely gone. The peach cobbler and the chocolate mousse cake are nearly finished... but there's always a whole blueberry pie left untouched.

Elizabeth: So what's wrong with the blueberry pie?

Jeremy: There's nothing wrong with the blueberry pie. Just... people make other choices. You can't blame the blueberry pie, just... no one wants it.

Elizabeth: Wait! I want a piece

Singin' in the Rain

Commitment 3. Be Real

All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I turned someone tried to tell me what it was. I accepted their answers too, though they were often in contradiction and even self-contradictory. I was naïve. I was looking for myself and asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer. It took me a long time and much painful boomeranging of my expectations to achieve a realization everyone else appears to have been born with: that I am nobody but myself.

A real classic: Blind Melon/No Rain

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
I like watchin' the puddles gather rain
And all I can do is just pour some tea for two
and speak my point of view
But it's not sane, It's not sane
I just want someone to say to me, (oh oh oh oh)
I'll always be there when you wake
You know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made
_______________________________________________________

Movie Quote: Nothing Hill
Honey: "Oh God, this is one of those key moments in life, when it's possible you can be really, genuinely cool - and I'm failing 100%. I absolutley and totally and utterly adore you and I think you're the most beautiful woman in the world and more importantly I genuinely believe and have believed for some time now that we can be best friends. What do YOU think?"

No Such Thing as The Real World

I''m now a certificated anti-bullying spokesperson. I remember those years of fear, suffering, doubts and insecurities...now I'm on fire, just watch me BURN!
suckers!! (how very immature from me)

Commitment 2.- The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want/Ben Stein
Gotta start making plans for the future, but real deal plans, not those teenage fame and money ones. Gotta make my mind and decide the path I'll follow in order to achieve the things I want. But the real question here is...What do I want?

I want to be a music producer
I want to direct videos
I want to make movies
I want to organize big events such as: concerts, galas, award ceremonies, parties.
I want to make a record
I want to travel the world
I want to act in a Broadway play
I want to make a Soap Opera
I want an Oscar, a Grammy, an MTV Award and an Emmy
I want to host a huge TV Show
I want a job in which I can be creative and not care about formal wear
I want success


...maybe I just want it all, so I better work on it


Currently Listening to: No Such Thing/ John Mayer

Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding up my sleeve

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

Movie Must: Welcome to the Dollhouse/1995

Ralphie: You think you're hot shit, but you're really just cold diarrhea.

K.I.D.S

Commitment 1- Health is not a game. But even when physical health is MAJOR, i decided to take care of my heart. I read somewhere..."We fix our hair everyday, but how often do you fix your heart?". Believe it or not, I do have one, it is dusted, but is there.
There's no need to wait for someone special to dust it out, I'm that special person I'm hoping to meet someday; I need to remind myself who I was, who I am, and then, and only then, I'll find the path I need to follow---

P.S. I went a bit literal with the photo, didn't I?

What I'm Listening to: Tokio Hotel/Monsoone
(when a shitty band makes an outstanding song, it sounds like this one)

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold, it's making me insane
I've been waitin' here so long
But now moment seems to've come
I see the dark clouds comin' up again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kfMnM5Y2rw8

Movie Must: Kids a film by Larry Clark
Jennie: What if you can't make yourself happy?
Cabby: Then I don't know. You know what you do then you forget, you block it out... If you want to be happy don't think... if you stutter don't talk.

Make It Really Loud

Feel like eating up the world by bits. Avoiding major fiasco in several aspects of my life, I decided to take action on some major areas...which will posted in my four upcoming entries. I wanna regret regretting 24/7 what I didn't do and I wanna do what it's stopping me from doing what I should do in order not to feel regrets...got it?


Musical (Guilty) Pleasure: Donna Summer/Stamp Your Feet
Rain comes in every player's life
Gotta stay in the game, not on the sidelines
Gotta throw down, you gotta stand and fight
Keep your eye on the prize, don't get caught up in strife
Go, go for the shot boy, make that play just right
Braggin' about your swag won't get you through the night
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k1O6PVLGkEM&feature=related

Movie Must: Elizabethtown (2005)
Drew Baylor: [voiceover] There's a diffrence between a failure and a fiasco. A failure is merely the absence of success. Any fool can achieve failure. But a fiasco, a fiasco is a disaster of epic propotions. A fiasco is a folk tale told to other's to make other people feel more alive because it didn't happen to them.

Ticket to Kansas

so many times I wish I had a ticket to the previous me, to the naive yet coy child with big dreams and tons of hope. I lost so much traveling to Oz, following the bright road. I wish I could go back to simplicity and innocence, but here I am; got cash to buy the ticket but no airline will take my money.

To my traveling partners, thank you for teaching me lessons on what to do by speech and what NOT to do by act. You are family that I was capable of choosing (not that I don't appreciate my very own family). Let's see where the road takes us, together we stand!

Must Listen to: Wild World/Cat Stevens

But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild worldI'll always remember you like a child
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLxyrMDzanU

Movie Must: The Wizard of OZ (1939)
Cowardly Lion: I'd be brave as a blizzard...
Tin Woodsman: I'd be gentle as a lizard...
Scarecrow: I'd be clever as a gizzard...
Dorothy: If the Wizard is a wizard who will serve.
Scarecrow: Then I'm sure to get a brain...
Tin Woodsman: A heart...
Dorothy: A home...
Cowardly Lion: The nerve!

Terrific (as in Terrible) Conversation

Va en Español
mi mamá tiene una terrible pronunciación del Idioma Anglo pero tengo una ligera sospecha que lo hace adrede. Hoy mi madre aprovecho nuestra sesión vespertina de cine en el hogar para relucir los contrastes entre la lengua Inglesa y la Española. Todo comenzo con el adjetivo "TERRIFIC", y como diría mi señor padre (a quien dedicaré un post posteriormente) de ahí pa'l real. Después de un debate que a Aristegui encantaría y a Merquer pondría a dormir, queme tres discos para el viaje que planeo hacer esta semana. Uno de ellos se llama Soft Pop: Easy Listening, otro Bon Voyage: English Volume, y el tercero De Viaje: Volumen en Español.
Después de analizarlo un poco, me di cuenta que mi pretensión de dominar dos lenguas y abusar de ello en la cotidiana acción de rotular un disco compacto no es peor que la pretensión de mi madre en serle fiel al nuesta lengua española y aprovechar cada instante para producir el idioma Inglés fonéticamente incorrecto y hacer burdas pero bien fundamentadas críticas, (she's a major bitch, and love her for that).
Las vacaciones (o como yo las llamo después de haber culminado mis estudios universitarios: la sobrexposición al ocio sin opción de protector contra rayos ultravioleta) han sacado a relucir pequeños y valiosos detalles, dignos de ser guionizados para un short film independiente que sea un exito en Sundance, y un fracaso en la taquilla.
Este fue el momento Gilmore entre mi madre y yo el dia de hoy.

Must Listen to: Robyn/ With Every Heartbeat
We could keep trying
but things will never change
So I don't look back
Still I'm dying with every step I take
But I don't look back

And it hurts with every heartbeat
And it hurts with every heartbeat
And it hurts with every heartbeat
It hurts with every heartbeat

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3vfLvZCdT9g

Movie Classic: Tootsie (1982)
Michael Dorsey: I never said I love you...
Sandy: I never said I love you, I don't care about I love you! I read "The Second Sex", I read "The Cinderella Complex", I'm responsible for my own orgasms, I don't care! I just don't like to be lied to!